Mary Brewster's
Diary
© Sue Allan 2007
Monday
We are
leaving our home land I can hardly believe it?
How can it be that we are being forced to leave behind everything
we know, to go on the run like a pack of fugitive criminals? Yet what have
we done that is so wrong? All that my husband and the others have ever
asked for is a little tolerance from the Church.
My
eldest, Jonathan, is nearly thirteen years old and almost a man. He
understands the gravity of our plight, bless him. But I had to watch him,
standing by the Manor gate saying one last good bye to his dearest
friend... I tell thee, it near broke my heart and his too
My
husband, William tells me that
Holland
is a fair enough country where at least we shall be free. Yet I do worry.
We don’t even speak the language. I suppose that it is a blessing that my daughter, Patience, and her baby
sister, Fear, are too young to understand what is happening. Yet that
worries me too. For my daughters won’t even remember
England
.
Tuesday
The
children remain in good humour. Those old enough walk the entire distance
while the youngest take turns riding upon our few carts or being carried
by their mothers. It is like a great adventure to them – a new game to
be enjoyed. The babies are
restless though with their routines broken. And we nursing mothers have
the devil’s own job trying to suckle our little ones on the move.
We fear the searchers. Surely the spy in our village has sent word to the
authorities by now that so many of us are missing from our homes.
Then late afternoon, Jonathan
suddenly shouted out that he could see Lincoln Cathedral in the distance.
The sight of that did make my stomach drop! For if we could see the
Cathedral then who was to say that the Bishop could not see us?
Last
night we slept in the out buildings of a good Puritan family and were able
to have a hot meal. I hope that tonight we might do likewise. For today
the sky has been bright and clear which can only mean one thing at this
time of year – a cold frosty night in prospect.
Wednesday
Last night we were
forced to sleep out in the open. We mothers huddled up close with our
little ones tucked under our skirts and covered ourselves over with canvas
and bracken and whatever else we could find for warmth. We lit no fire,
for the searchers would have seen it like a beacon in the wilderness so
instead we went to sleep with chill hands and feet and with only a cold
meal to comfort our sorry bellies. Today I am stiff and I ache all over.
It is easier for the younger men and women in our party, but I am nearly
forty years of age and already suffer from the bone ache on the best of
days. How I miss my feather bed!
Praise the Lord, but
with just an hour or so until darkness came, Will
Bradford
rode back to say that he had found shelter for us for the night. It was so
good to rest undercover and to get a hot meal inside us once more.
Thursday
Will Bradford says
that we are to make our way to a deserted stretch of fenland to the
seaward side of
Boston
. My husband William, with John and Francis left before dawn to make for
the
port
of
Boston
to see if they cannot bribe a ship’s
captain to take us across to the Low Country.
It was a hard walk over difficult terrain to Fishtoft. And when we
got there the heavens burst open and we were soon sodden down to our
petticoats with rain. I never did see such a bleak and pitiless landscape!
We spied a small stand of trees and scrub and so quickly made for that,
huddling together like lost sheep in a storm waiting for our
shepherd. Please God let William and the others not get captured.
Friday.
The shadowy outline of
the ship suddenly came looming up out from the darkness of the landscape.
With naught but one lantern lit at her fore to guide us to her. Some of
the women amongst us began to cry with joy and relief as they were helped
aboard by the mariners. Not I though. Instead I was suddenly filled with a
rush of deep foreboding.
The captain had taken
a small fortune from us to speed us on to safety but instead, once he had
us in his grasp, he delivered us to
our enemies like lambs to the slaughter. His crew stripped us of
everything we had of value then turned us over to the authorities at
Boston
. I cannot find words to write the great despair we now find ourselves
in…
© Sue Allan 2007
Sue and Russell Hocking of Pilgrim Tours UK
Sue warned Rod not to shout out
'Hello Sailor' wearing that get up in
Boston!